lately.

alot has happen lately.

now i'm not about to share what has happened with the world but i am going to say i have been feeling pretty overwhelmed.

i have shead some tears, yes. but i think i will come out of this stronger.

after all when you've hit rock bottom, the only place to go is up.

which is what i plan to do.

in the past i have only planned to go up so i could make a few choice people jealous.

i thought that they should know what it feels like.

but they do already, pretty sure.

which is why from now on i hope to do things for me, and the people that truely matter.

because the people who don't matter, just aren't worth my time or my admiration.

so why do i admire them?

popular with the guys? nah, the guys that they are popular with only have one thing on their mind, plus i could have a more intelligent conversation with a chair.

'pretty'? ummm, nope, because i have no idea what they really look like under that inch of makeup that they are wearing.

good friends? nope because their friends aren't mine. therefore they couldn't possibly be as good as they can be =)

i don't think i admire them anymore.

because i think people who look great are brilliant. but i think people who actually are great are so much better.